Journaling

If you could create your paradise, what would it look like?

Think about today's day, where are you investing your energy? Is it really worth it? 

Have you lost commitment to yourself? Your true Soul? How is it different from the persona you portray to the world? 

Only insecure fear wants to know the future. A soul is mindful of the present moment. 

What your "I love you really mean?". What are your expectations from these words? 

What does it mean to have a Self as a priority? What does it mean to have a Soul as a priority? Is there any conflict of interest between the two? Is it supposed to be? What inner critic decided it? 

What triggers you and causes you anxiety at this moment. Now step back. Realize that this is just a small fraction of your life. Eventually it will be irrelevant. Why give it so much power? 

Letting go isn't giving up. Its realizing that certain battles werent supposed to be fought by you. 

(From internet)

You are here to understand yourself, not to be understood. (From internet). If you look back in the past, in which situations you really didn't understand yourself? 

What I stand for is what I stand on. - From Internet 

"If it costs you your  peace, it's too expensive." Paulo Coelho

Is it true? 

Be firm and alert with people who make you feel that it is difficult to love you. Sometimes they don't deserve another chance. 

"If you want to be like a storm, be the storm, if you want to be like water, be water, if you want to be like wind be it. This is a knowledge that shamans shared." Quote from Mathias did Stefano.

What does it mean to you? 

What is right? Justice or logic? 

Everyone has their own versions of truths. Do you agree? 

Codependent relationships lead to the loss of the authentic Self. What does it mean to you? 

If you weren't scared of anyone or anything, where would you be right now? 

In your life, what doors have always been open? 

Я это я, я внутри себя. - О. Найденова. 

I am here and now, in this moment. I am within myself. I listen and observe. If you had turned into internal observer,  what do you see ?  Describe in three words.

What is a purpose of loneliness? Sometimes we're so involved with other people that we lose ourselves in them.  We lose ourselves in their energy. If you are meant to grow and evolve into something particular and people abandon you, it means their prsence may turn into predicament to your growth. Your soul guides safely separate you from them and influence of their energy. We are born to discover who we are, our own truths. If our truth quest is seriously deviated we go through challenges to awaken a sleeping part of our soul. Life quest is to select to be around your true tribe. 

Why do you go to work? No really, why?
What is the most peaceful job in the world? 

You should dance with skeletons in your closet. Learn their names. Have coffee with them. Ask them important questions like, "What keeps you here?" Learn what doors they keep finding open, and kick them out. - From internet.

When people reject us, we are getting closer to our authentic self. Its a cost for freedom. 

Who drives your life? 

Can life be perfect? Then why do we treat it as perfectionists? Can relationships be perfect? 

Когда душа научилась читать, каждый лист на дереве становится священным писанием. - Леонид Мацих мистик.

Выбор встречает нас на перекрестке перемен, но не определяет нас, а раскрывает элемент истины, тонкую грань, бога или зверя. И это в какой-то степени искусство. 

Disappointment often reveals weaknesses in our foundations.

Every weakness inspires strength. 

Trauma causes fear of unknown. As a result any new blessing is met with fear. It is scary to open an unknown door, be it a job or relationship. Poor people always ask, where is the catch and they don't advance in life. It leads eventually yo learned helplessness.  That person always needs cheerleaders in life, someone for support and be a source of security. But would you learn how to walk if someone was always holding your hands? 

No one wants to go outside on a rainy day.

What was the best disaster mistake you've ever made that turned out for the best? What lessons did you learn?

What is  a human connection? What makes you feel safe, comfortable, understood? 

Sometimes, there are people or work who fill a void you have never had the courage to examine. Painful? Void that makes you feel lonely, lost, numb and in the fog. When you journey into that void, you align with your soul and if you dont, if you follow distraction, your life crumbles.  First, you feel  good, but when pleasure wears off, theres apathy, depression ,loss of jobs, friendships, status, health and even life. 

"It feels painful because of who I was when I was with you. You're gone and that version of me is gone." Is it true? 

Wholeness is not perfection or having everything figured out. It is a deep, embodied sense of being complete within yourself—even with your shadows, wounds, and contradictions. Wholeness means holding your light and your darkness with equal compassion—your strengths, your fears, your joys, and your pain. None are rejected or denied. Instead, they are woven together into a living tapestry.

It’s the ability to be present with yourself exactly as you are, without judgment or the urgent need to change or fix. It’s a peaceful surrender to your current state, even as you grow.

Can relationships be perfect? Why do we have enemies and people unwilling to connect or  collaborate? 

Enemies help us to uncover hidden parts of ouselves, things we are unwilling to face, things that expand us. They help us to  see  who we truly are. The deepest essence of our fear. (Inspired  from Next Level Soul)

When did you stop learning? That is where your soul went astray. 

The day you plant your seed is not the day you eat your fruit. - From internet.

Replace choices of convenience with choices of consequences. The exchange changes everything. - M. Gillette  

How often do you play a game of convenience? 

Accept people as they are, but place them where they belong. You are the  CEO of your life, hire, fire and promote accordingly. - From internet. Right now, at this moment who would you hire, fire or promote?

If you want to start flying, release everything that weights you down. 

Think of moments when you had a crisis. What false beliefs and complexes you developped after? 

Now think of moments when you had control over these situations. What would you do differently? 

Did I put someone or something as priority when it was harmful to me? Why did I do that? What promise did that project? 

Did I overlooked those who weren't? 

Did I accept invisibility as normal? Why? 

 If you want your outer world to finally reflect your inner worth, its not vanity, its integration. Do you agree? 

“What does wholeness feel like in my body, mind, and heart?”

Affirmation: “I am calm, centered, and loving with all parts of myself—my light and my shadows(what i rejected or unaware about but triggered) . I feel safe and complete in my own presence.” 

Journal moments you felt whole or loved yourself that day.

Visibility isn’t something that finds you.
It’s something you build by being so honest in your voice that people can’t look away

Your enemies represent what you fear being accused of if you step into your full power.

How your weaknesses have been exploited? 

Wholeness happens when your thoughts, emotions, and actions flow in harmony with your deepest values and soul purpose. It’s when your inner world and outer life dance in balance.

It includes a loving relationship with yourself, where you are your own safe place. It’s a refuge and a springboard for loving others—not from neediness, but from abundance.

Wholeness is the end of feeling “broken,” split, or incomplete. It’s the recognition that you were never truly fractured—only temporarily veiled by trauma, fear, or disconnection.

Who am I without my fear?

What truth are you avoiding in yourself?

What part of me is eternal?

If you chase, you abandon yourself, if you run away, you're escaping from yourself. (From internet) 

What part of yourself you abandon and run away from? What you do not value in yourself? What you do not want to see in yourself? What's lurking beneath that you cannot accept? 

I would add, if the world is unfair to you, where have you been unfair to your own soul? 

If you feel like an elephant in a porcelain shop, ask yourself, what would an elephant do? Sometimes nature is more rational and logical. Elephant cannot be ashamed that he is too big for the environment. Elephants live in a jungle not in a porcelain shop but jungle is scary, isn't it?

It's a rare privilege to discover and to know who you really are, but do you have the courage to accept it? And if you do, what happens then? 

What is your current challenge? Why is it hard to take action and put your own energy into it? Why does it feel like waste of time? 

Attachment creates need. Need creates attachment.

When people are born they forget who they are, they pass throgh the veil of forgetfulness. Not remembering your soul is eqivalent to dark night of the soul. So Earth is a journey of dark night of the soul , unlessyou awaken. 

How to discover your soul truth? It's an ascension from what Mary Magdalene gospel mentioned. 

A lot of people confuse self care with material world, nutrition, fitness,  boundaries and etc. There's nothing wrong with it. However, self love and self care can refer to soul.  How do i take care and love my soull? (From internet). The answer is in the ability to handle my own truth.  Am I ready to handle my truth ? What exactly is my truth?  

If there's pain - there's  your ressource.(From internet)

What is a dark night of the soul? It is when you have a fog in your mind. When you feel so lost, you don't even know where to turn. As if you're on Crossroads without a map, nothing feels meaningful anymore. Things that had value, lost all value.  Ideal dream job lost its apeal. Deep down, you feel there is something of substance but there is nothing that compares to it. You don’t know what it is and you don't know how to find it. You feel  lost in your life journey, nothing is clear. What did you lose? Your soul. How do you find it during dark night of the soul? What you're seeking is seeking you. 

When bridges are burned, you remember your wings. Do you agree? What kind of wings? 

Imagine this, working as a cashier in a store as opposed to knowledge based respected specialist, how does it feel? In which case we're humbled by life and in which case  ego is inflated? Ego is our belief about ourselves based on arrogance driven expectations. Power trips feed ego. So, we meet people who challenge our ego and who reflect it to us.  In terms of soul self love, ego trips distort vision. If you ask God to help you remember who you are there will be harsh tests targetting ego. Soul feels peace, ego feels pain. 

The phoenix doesn’t cling to the ashes—it rises because the soul inside knows how to fly.

Good sleep gives clarity. Or at least alignment  in good direction. 

You are not lost, you were ridiculed, devalued and gaslit.  So, you perceive your own truth  as a threat right now. This is why it doesn't have any value. This is why it feels impossible. Is it even safe? 

Paths align when readiness meets purpose.

Sometimes we're addicted to self sooth our own trauma. Healing is an art of small steps. How did you cope? - From internet. 

It's OK to be private, something sacred and honest has to genuinly exist. If you feel like changing and molding your message to fit the connection... then its better be private and authentic than lost. Your message is part of your journey and questions you asked. Don't erase yourself. It is probably the only ground and anchor you have when you face storms and forgotten your essence. 

Ask yourself, what am I ready to sacrifice in the moment? In this specific moment?  - From internet 

Why I don't?  

Uncertainty is gut wrenching but, ’m not settling anymore, even if I don’t know how the shift will happen yet. I will surf the wave. 

You plant, you grow and you get your fruits.  We often want to skip steps for quick monetisation. Fruits grow in it's season. There are no quick fixes. However, even in dry land you should give à minute for your passion, even in apathy, even if it feels like its not a passion anymore. Do it no matter what. Even if you will never get results. Youll do it out of love not because you expect a reward.  Its a different  type of energy. What did you love in the past and didnt care about reward?

A lantern lights only a few steps ahead, but enough to keep walking. This means: you may not need a full plan. If your heart is drawn, even softly, follow that pull.